Stop it

Note to Pei Shan and Yi ling: [If you ever bother reading this] :) Don't feel bad kays? Cheer up nobody is ignoring you :) If you smile the whole world smiles with you :) We"ll go through this hard time together kays? Hope you are encouraged by this :) Don't ever think too much.
I know I do sometimes.
I'm such a bitch for the past few days.

S,I hope you are reading this don't ever do anything to hurt yourself.Please.It pains me to see you miserable everyday.I've been half in your shoes.I know what it's like.For your case,its even worse. I"ll pray for your well being.And there is so much things we haven't done together.Please be happier. :)

*You know who you are:
Not gonna let you hurt me again.
I won't so I'll keep my stand as a victim.
So now you need me huh?
Seem like a stranger for the past few days.
Are you Blind or am I too invincible for your sight?
Get out of my life.
I survived with support for the past few days.
Thanks YL <3
I'm independent now, and I DON'T NEED YOU.
NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.
I was foolish
I'll never trust anyone again.(except GOD,at least he keeps my secrets)
You can say that I'm selfish but I made my mind up.
Deja vu,Didn't this happen before?
Back to square 1
I JUST CAN'T DO IT
HELP ME
-FRAGILE,BREAKABLE-
Please don't hurt me again.
I can't take anymore.
You have always taken me for granted.

But I still miss you :'(
I just don't want to hurt again.
I'm leaving for the last time.

Trees contribute to the environment,they give you your oxygen.
Trees are what we see and past by everyday.
Most of the time they are neglected.
Just like me.
I'm sometimes tired of always being there for people.
I wish they would for me.

What hurts most:
And most of the time I don't talk to you NOT because I hate you or have anything against you,but I feel awfully ugly when I stand beside you.
I don't want to be compared.
Why do you always get what you want?
I'm not that lucky,Princess.
While all your sisters are screaming at your name and moaning at your cuteness.
I feel more ugly.
Tell me,what's wrong with me?
I wished I had what you had.
But I keep reminding myself countless times,I'm not you,I'm not you at all and can never be you.
When I comfort myself by saying "Hey you know what? You can never be me.Ever."
At that point instead,I feel worthless.
How can I compare to you?
Am I jealous?
I hoped and tried not to be.
I just want to be noticed.
Sometimes I make effort to wave to people,you know what,I actually do care about small gestures.
2 out of 10 would wave back.
And as you speak,people fantasize about you.
Guys would die for you if they had to.
I'm selfish and I sometimes wish you didn't exist so I'll feel better inside.
I'm sorry I'm still trying hard to overcome this.
It's not intentional.
I'm not you but we are some how similar...sometimes
I feel like I'm living in your shadow...
A consolation prize just beside you,unworthy to look at.
Cause everybody Loves a winner so nobody loves me.
Lady Peaceful,Lady Happy,That's what I long to be.
Please forgive me...I'm a human,I make mistakes too.
Please don't be good to me,I'll feel worse.
Thanks.